Let go, let live, let grow.

I wish I need not say this but I guess things are much better this way. At least now, we finally have an excuse not to talk to each other. We have a reason to ignore each other, and we don't even have to try. It was much harder for me to see you everyday and let every chance and opportunity to spend even a bit of time together, to be happy together, just pass and be forgotten. Fate has been so hard on us, and she finally brought us here. She has been releasing arrows and tugging us apart at the same time. There is a part of you that needs to be ruined. But to do that would be a sacrifice, for it is the very thing that keeps me longing and unsatisfied. Cruelty in its purest form. In time, this distance could pull us again together. But that, my dear, is just a maybe. 

For so long, I have been trying to escape you. I don't know if you're doing the same too, or if you didn't need to. In whichever case, please know that I am still unsuccessful at my feat. However, I am slowly loosing my grasp. I have decided that this is the perfect opportunity for me to let my memories of you go. Now that I am here, I cannot see you, I cannot talk to you, and I cannot speak of you. I can only think of you. And this is something that passes away, eventually. I may have you always in my heart, but my mind will eventually forget you. I know. I have been through this a lot of times before. And with the same person too, you.

Just know that I miss you everyday, even when you were still near me. And if our next meeting wouldn't be as awkward as our last, then that only means that we have finally let the past go.  We can go from there together or in opposite directions. Either way, I will be happy. I just need you to smile for me.